Watching the parent of Anthony who hung himself, talk on TV today made me realise how he did everything I am doing now. He was scared of opening up and he led everyone on to believe he was okay, he seemed happy, when he was having a proper shit time, he had a girlfriend and kid he loved and it still got too much for him

what if that’s me? What if i’m just at an earlier stage, the worst thing is i’m not even that bothered, i’m too lethargic and already at the stage of giving up to do anything about it

First time i’ve wrote in my personal blog in so long, sometimes talking but to no-one is the best remedy 

one of the worst moments in life is probably when you’re in a room full of people and you look around and see them all talking and laughing and all of sudden you feel so sad and lonely that you can even feel a physical pain in your chest because you realize that they all belong to someone and they all have someone who belongs to them and you don’t, you’re just kind of there

(Source: zayhun)